I write to Love, hoping Love would find Its way to me.. Am i truely loving, when i love with an expectation? Am i not loving, when i wish for a communion with Love? Is Love ready for me? Is Love waiting for me? Is Love finding Its way to me? Is Love by passing me? Is Love never for me? Has Love lost its way to me?
Gentleman He is, He has touch me softly, let me feel his love and care, has kiss me gently, let me sense i am the jewel in his care, has hug me gently, give me the sense of security i sincerely lack.
He has filled my life, from one of hollow and sad, to one of fulfilled and blessed.
Longing for closeness is strong today.. probably hormone surge, and probably i miss He a lot too. Just silently enjoy the moment..
I have been very rude to my mom tonight. Felt that she commented unfairly on me. Don’t know why, my temper just flare..
Felt that mom is a fairly critical of me recently, maybe i have been not up to her mark, but maybe, it’s diminishing self control as she is growing older. I wish i can turn a deaf ear to her criticism and things would just come to pass. The problem with me, is i am too petty, and my perfectionism acts up when others comments me. Sigh! Trust myself that i can build on myself and be more accomodating from now on..
Need to find a few verse in the Bible to meditate on..
Lunch time approaching, thinking of what to eat now. A bit difficult to find food for myself, as no caborhydrate makes street food choice fairly limited. Either vegetarian, or either meat or seafood. I eat either like a rabbit or a lion. No in between.. 
Health improve markedly, have to listen to my body..
Dear baby, won’t you go to sleep. Let’s the doze of sleep, make you strong and healthy, let the sweetness of dream, tell you kisses and stories, let the rest of your body, give you jazz and tranquility..
i saw you there, i want to rush into your arms, i want to be wrap in your embrace, i want to feel your heart beat, and i want to feel the warmth of your breath. But there are too many of them there, there are too distance of us here, and there are too many burdens around..
Contented with a hi, a smile.. it is subtle, engulfed with tons of the emotions, of love and romance and signifies that you are just special to me..
I saw you from afar, it has quicken the beat of my heart, it has shorten the heave of my breath, it has driven mad rush of my hormone. I can only smile and say hi. I can only close my eyes and ask why. But i am glad i saw you. it gives me hope and light that i will be with you one day, soon..
Start to do enzyme cultivation process last night, pour in diluted rock sugar into kitchen left over in proportion of 1:3:10, awaiting for 3 months for the results to come out. Feel very good about the new project, its green, and helpful to the earth in a small way. Think its an alternative career path to be taken on next time if circumstances permits. But then, I would be a dirty housewife then, surrounded by rubbish, and kitchen leftovers.. got to give it a second thought.
Would like to take on another more project on enzyme cultivation, this time, for own consumption. Accordingly its very healthy and simple. Would study more and do the project slowly. Its very exciting.
Working hard on Sunday today. Last dash for this month. There will be a fresh and pressing dash next month too. But i think it would be slightly better as things are more predictable next month..
Looking forward to the months after next. Just simple and quiet reunion. Harmonious and happy. Sparks and memories..
Could not imagine life without He. My life is happy because of He, and i am beautiful because of He. When He is in my life, i am a charged to march on with life, happy and hopeful. Can’t hug him as often as i would like too, but i hold on to his being all the time.
Looking forward to He becoming my hubby soon..
