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Can’t think of other ways that will do well for me..

Its something personal, like it low profile and quiet, it would be loving and cheerful. Always hope for a casual ‘hi, are u free for dinner/lunch?’ With that i feel, he is ready, then he would be my hubby next, then there would be our baby, with his permission..

We go register at the Marriage Registrar and then we can go on trips together, here and there, like two happy bees hopping from trees to trees, or like two graceful ducks gliding in the stream..

Both of us are so busy, there must be time where we can still some out for these joyful activities.. half a day, couple of days.. depands..

Wedding Dinner can come much later if both of us are too lazy to plan for it and if there are no parental pressures…

Been out on a job whole day and would be so for the next few days.. Its enerygy zapping because of time constraint and also work environment that is not as condusive. Also, in the office, i feel nearer to he than out there. The mere sight is make me smile. Just glad he is around..

Really feel like getting married to he, would he marry me.. ?

These few days is hands on a fairly messy task.. my preoccupied brain churns out numbers and alphabets and it can mess with feelings and thoughts..

Wish there are no stereotype in thoughts, but the nature warrants these neutral thoughts, neutral in effects, rooted in nature, like a journey of spirits.. cutting these out, would that still be me..? a better me? a lost me.. ?

If he is not in my life, where would my soul be? Maybe buried deep in the ocean of black sea ..

Holding myself in wait for your return.. at my door, his smiling face, his steady gaze, a calming voice, saying ‘hey’..

Piercing Joy paralysing me, and my tongue is out of its mean.. unconsciously, locking him using my gaze, just in case, he will whiz into the maze, making me into hide seek play..

Patiently, impatiently awaiting your return, for it is the entry into a world which we had long lose touch..

Can’t wait for the day when i feel his warm hug, one that give me a full sense of security and enable every inches of my body to be totally relaxed..

Can’t wait for the day when i feel his caress on me, one that would make me feel so loved, and so cherished, tenderly, lovingly, and emphathetically..

Can’t wait for the day when i feel his kiss, one that would satiate my need of him, one that would tell me of his need for me, and one that unites two hungry souls..

Looking forward to the day when we begin to share a life. The day at my door where i welcome him into our shared life, when i show him to everyone that life is where heart is, and when we know happiness is when we are together, no matter where and when we are..

One more messy file to go, but i am feeling kind of relax tonight.. Understand his view, work to live, but not live to work. Things will become better soon. Bear with me, please..

Stomach not feeling well tonight, wonder what is happening to my poor stomach.. maybe food poisoning.. oh no!